Finding Me
By: Jeremy Michaels
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Chapter 8

Eric 

“Do you think they will be alright babe? Dennis seems to be unsure about what you found out the three of you. Then there’s Paul who’s willing to do whatever he has to just to have and keep his family.” Marc says.

“Dennis doesn’t worry me as much as Paul does. Dennis is like a cat, he adapts to his circumstances and no matter what life throws at him, he always lands on his feet running. Now we have more important things to do, like take your virginity away.”

“You know angel, I really don’t mind if you’re tired and want to wait for another night.”

“Is my big bad boy afraid of getting his cherry popped?”

“I’m not afraid of anything. Well I am afraid of never having you in my life, but that’s the only thing that I’m afraid of.”

“Sweetheart, you’ll always have me in your life,” I tell him, but there’s something that he’s not saying. “Talk to me Marc, I want, no, I need to know what it is that’s bothering you. Is it the money that I inherited?”

It’s as if time has completely stopped, as our eyes lock together. I can see him tear up, and I knew that we were approaching some invisible boundary that separates friends and lovers. I place my hands on each side of his face and he closes his eyes as I bring him down to me. Our mouths meet and in that one sweet, bliss filled moment, all boundaries are shattered. Marc presses his mouth to mine as if he was starving for love, I open my mouth for him to give me his tongue and he does. He kisses me hard and long like a real man kisses, not like some girl does but like a real man’s man does in the movies with the woman he loves. It is hard, ferocious and filled with the passion he was feeling. Just as hands my starts to move down his back, he breaks our kiss.

“I can’t babe, I’m all wrong for you,” he says suddenly, and he quickly gets off me and leaves me alone on the bed.

He is standing at the window, crying, and just like the first time that I saw him cry, it breaks my heart. I get up and move to stand behind him, wrapping my arms tightly around his slim waist, and I rest my head on his back.

"Marc, you never knew this, but I have dreamt of this moment ever since I first saw you strolling across the school lawn so manly and sure of yourself," I tell him standing there. “I was this skinny ass nerd that most guys like you kick around and brush aside as useless. But there you were walking towards me with your head held high and your eyes taking in everything and everyone around you, so confident of who you were. Then your eyes met mine and something happened, it was like a reincarnated soul found that one special soul that they were reincarnated to be with. You gave me that sexy smirk and I knew that I had found me hero.”

"Please angel , please don't say that, I'm no hero," he says, and he continues to stare out of the window. "I remember that day also. As I drew up closer to you, my heart was beating so hard that I swear that I was going to have a heart attack. But it was when you gave me that precious smile of yours that I knew, here’s the love of my life that I’ve been praying for and I panicked. I was afraid to come out," he says and turns to me with his eyes all wet with his tears. “Do you remember what I said to you, because I do and I will never forget it.”

“You said to me and I quote, what are you looking at faggot. But it wasn’t the words that I remember most it’s what your eyes said looking into mine.”

“They said to me … I’m sorry.” Marc and I say together.

"I'm sorry TJ for hurting you then and more so now. I can’t be a kept man and I refuse to be your lapdog. There I’ve said It TJ , but I love you, and even though I have been in love with you for so long I can’t be those things for you. Sweet mercy babe I do have my pride if nothing else.”

“Who said that you’re going to be my lapdog and a kept man? Who Marc, because the only ones that know about my inheritance are right here in this house.”

“Dennis whispered it to me earlier when you were talking with Paul. He said that he wishes that he could be your kept man and lapdog like I am.”

Marc turns back to the window and I can see that he’s crying because his shoulders are shaking slightly. I hurry from my room and cross the hall to were Dennis and Paul are staying.

“You had no right to accuse my man of being my kept man and lapdog, Dennis,” I shout at him as I storm into the room.

It’s then that I realize that he’s fucking Paul and both of them are startled by my sudden intrusion. “Get your dick out of him now. You and I are going to have a heart to heart right now. Paul, go to my room and sit with Marc please.  And put some clothes on before you go,” I tell and he’s so scared that he only nods.

“Eric please let me explain,” a worried Dennis asks.

“You are going to sit down and listen to me. I know that I’m not your brother, but for as long as I live Dennis, you and Paul will be my brothers. Now I was going to tell you and Paul this in the morning, but I’m going to tell you now. I’m giving each of you one hundred million dollars to start your life out with. But there’s going to be rules before you get one penny of it.” I tell him and I can see that he stopped listening after I said one hundred million dollars.

“Dennis, are you listening to me?” He nods. “Now rule number one, that money will be set aside in a trust fund for each of you, separate funds of course. Rule number two, you are to buckle down in school. If your grades fall below an A, I will subtract five hundred thousand dollars for each grade bellow an A. Rule number three, your extracurricular activities, namely sex, are to stop at school. Am I very clear on this because if I catch you or even hear that you’re having sex during the school day, I’ll subtract one million dollars. Rule number four. You will be going to college, there’s no ands, if’s or buts about it. You will not coast through life being useless to society because you have money. I will pay for your entire college education but if you don’t get at the very least a Masters degree, then your trust fund reverts back to me and I will wash my hands of you.”

“And if I decide to go without your money?”

“Then so be it but It will be your loss and there will be no changing your mind. Marc and I are going to be going to college and we plan to eventually start our own business. Marc is not now and never will he be my kept man or lapdog as you so cruelly accused him of being. I nearly lost him a few minutes ago because of your cruel and thoughtless words. Now I want you to think long and hard about what I just said,” I tell him and walk to the door. “There’s one more thing that you should know Dennis, I love you so fucking much that you have no idea how much I love you.”

Dennis runs to me and wraps his arms around me and cries. I love you too Eric and I’m sorry for being such a disappointment for you.”

“You’re not a disappointment bro, you’re a teenager. My circumstances made me grow up quicker than I wanted to. I feel like I’m a grown up man trapped in a teenage boy’s body. You’re young and have your entire life ahead of you to live and enjoy. I feel like I’ve been robbed of those years. First I’m put into a coma and then I spend the next two years recovering and finding myself. Then I come back here and I’m under Andre’s control and mood swings and it’s like being back at our old house with our dad bullying and beating me. Now I have this vast fortune and I’m expected to be mature and know what to do with my life. Well sweetheart I haven’t a clue what I want to do with my life. The only thing that I’m one million percent sure of is that I want that handsome man waiting for me in our bedroom. And do you know what hurts me the most, he feels that he can’t be what I need him to be. He thinks, no he believes that he’s going to be an embarrassment for me when in truth, I’m the one that will be an embarrassment for him. He’s every bit a man, he’s strong of mind and character. When he walks into a room people watch him, and not out of fear but because he exudes self confidence and power. He told me earlier that he couldn’t live without me in his life, when the truth is, I’d rather be dead then to live without him in my life,” I say and the tears are running like a faucet down my face.

“Ah angel please don’t cry you know that it breaks my heart when you do,” Marc tenderly says behind me and I whirl around to see my man standing there with his long strong arms opened and waiting for me to come into them.

I rush to him and his arms fold around me as he lowers his mouth to mine and kisses me.

“How long have you been standing there?”

“Long enough angel, long enough. Now take me to bed and what’s the term you used, oh yeah, deflower me,” he says giving me his signature smirk.

“Marc, I’m…” Dennis begins.

“I know Dennis so let’s forget about it,” he gives him a wink and leads me back to our room with his strong arm around and waist. 

Marc 

As soon as we enter our room, I turn and lock the door, before I turn my eyes to his.

"Are you sure about this babe," he asks as we walk over to the bed..

“I’ve never been more sure about this than I am right now,” I say and he lays me down on the bed, and gets between my legs. 

I want this to be his best experience ever, as well as mine I’m thinking as he begins to nibble on my erect nipple. He would gently bite it, suck it until I couldn't take it any longer and then he moves over to the other, and gives it the same treatment. I’m cooing and moaning out my pleasure because of what he’s doing to my senses. I’m so use to being the giver of pleasure that I can barely comprehend the sensual charges that are streaming through my body.

"I never imagined that my nubs could be so sensitive to such treatments," I sigh as I hold him to his chest. "Oh fuck yeah babe, keep doing it just like that," I tell him and my fingers are tangled in his hair as I hold him to me.

When I finally can’t take it any longer, he runs his tongue down towards my cock, tracing each curve of my abs with his tongue as he descends. He pauses for a bit as he runs his tongue around my naval. It is when he pushes it into it that I become ticklish and roar with laughter.

"Stop babe that tickles," I tell him and he just laughs, but he’s persistent in tormenting my naval.

Eric  

“Remember that karma’s a bitch,” Marc says as I reluctantly move on.

I’m chuckling to myself as I lick my way down to his bush, following his treasure trail and I drink in the scent of my man as I make a memory. I then begin to lick and nibble on the base of his cock and he’s thrashing frantically as I ascend up his rod. I drive him half wild, nipping and sucking my way up to its head. I lick up his precum that he is leaking with my tongue before I run it all around the swollen head. When I plunge down on his cock, I think that he’s going to go out of his mind with erotic pleasure.

"Oh fuck babe, you sure know how to suck a cock," he says.

"Mmmm," is all I can manage say with a mouth full of hard teen cock.

I suck hard and fast, gliding up and down on his cock with my mouth until I feel his cock’s head start to swell. I drop it and move down to his balls. Marc loves the way I suck him and I want my bad boy to never want another man after me, so I give him the best I knew how. I suck his balls one at a time into my mouth. I make love to each of them until they start to draw up, signaling me that he’s close again. I lift his left leg and place it on my shoulder as I begin to lick and nibble at his inner thigh, which is another thing that drives him crazy with pleasure. He’s now thrashing beneath me as I run my tongue down to his virgin rosebud. I run my tongue all around his sweet hole and then push it deep into his ass.

"Holy fuck, what are you doing to me angel," he screams out as he lifts his ass up to give my tongue more of him.

I fucked his ass with my tongue and wet my finger. I pushed it in and I feel no resistance so I add another and begin to move them about. I soon find his love nut and begin to massage it, which sends him howling.

"Yeah baby doll ... that’s the place... aaaah fuck just like that," he stammers out in ecstasy.

I massage his love nut and soon he is crying out in ecstasy,

"Fucking take me, I'm coming," and I pounced on his cock just as he shoots his first volley of sweet cum.

I drink it all in and never swallow a drop, but save it for lube. I’ve come to realize that cum is the best lubricant for fucking I sit up once he’s spent and I spit it into my hand. I rub it into his ass before adding the rest to my cock. I position my cock to his ass as I looked down into his worrying eyes.

"Are you sure about this babe," I ask and he nods yes.

I give it a gentle but firm push and in it goes all the way, until it bottoms. The cum gives it a perfect glide and once through, it just keeps going all the way in until my balls are resting against his ass.

"Fuck babe stop," he yells out as the pain courses through him. "It’s fucking killing me," he says as tears fill his eyes.

I was not as long as Andre’s ten inches, but I still had a fat nine to give him. I bend down and kiss him, as I wait for his pain to subside. I kiss him until I feel him grinding against my cock and I know that he’s ready to be fucked. I raise up on my hands and I just gaze into his eyes as I slowly pull my cock out some and then push it back in. He rises up to meet me so I begin to look for our rhythm.

"Fuck me babe, I want to feel your cock as it explodes in me," he says holding my shoulders with his hands.

I started to fuck him now more aggressively, and soon we find our perfect rhythm. He’s meeting my thrusts with pushes of his own and howling out his pleasure.

"Yeah baby, fuck me harder and deeper," he crows as I pound his ass.

I am fucking his ass with every ounce of energy I have. We are well into our rhythm and I keep him on the brink of coming but I’m not letting him come. It’s when I feel his ass tighten that I know he is going to shoot. I push his legs higher, and slam my cock deeper until he shoots his wicked sweet load.

"Ooooh fuck yeah, fuck your bad boy angel," he screams as he jerks his cock.

His hot cum is shooting everywhere as I plow his ass. It doesn’t take me long at this pace to reach my own climax and I yell out in delight.

"I coming babe," and he begins to pull me in faster and deeper. 

"Yeah baby ride my cock," I scream as I feel my cum move up from my balls. "Aaaah fuck here it comes," and I shoot my cum deep into his ass.

"Oh fuck I can feel you shooting in me," he says as he pushes up to get me deeper in him. "Oh yeah …. fuck me my ass … tame your bad boy," he orders as he pulls me to him and we kiss as I continue to fill and pound his ass.

I have never come like this before and I didn't want it to stop, but I did end.  As my cock softens, it falls from his ass and we kiss just holding each other, as we ride out our sweet afterglow.  Both of us are drained and we lay there surrounded by silence. Finally, I feel Marc’s hand, as it brushes the hair from my forehead.  I looked down at him and I can feel the love he has in his heart for me.

"You give one hell of a fuck babe," he says with a smirk, as the roar of Dennis coming in the guest room breaks the silence.

“I guess we’re not the only ones having fun.”

We get into our spooning position with my backside up against Marc and his 

right arm and leg is draped over my body and soon we drift off to sleep.

******* 

The next morning I’m laughing my ass off as I watch Marc walking to the bathroom. He’s walking like a toddler that just filled his pants. I’m rolling on the bed and he turns to give me that look of his that says he’s not amused.

“Oh come on babe, it can’t be that bad,” I say and he flips me the finger.

“I hope that you enjoyed your ride last night because hell will freeze over before I bottom again for King Kong,” I erupt into such a fit of laughter that Dennis and Paul comes running in.

I shush them and motion them over to the bed, where they eagerly join me.

“What’s so funny,” Dennis whispers to me.

“It’s Marc, I took his cherry last night and now he’s walking like he got fucked by a fifteen inch dick. He even referred to me as King Kong,” I tell them softly as Marc enters the room. 

When the guys see how Marc is walking, we all erupt into fits of laughter and again, he flips us off.

“Come on Marc, Eric can’t be that big to make you walk like that,” Dennis says chuckling.

“Then spread those pretty boy legs and let Eric fuck your ass and see how you walk after,” he says as he joins us in bed.

“That sounds like a dare to me,” he says and looks at me.

“What? How did I get roped into this?” I ask.

“Ask your boyfriend, he’s the one that volunteered you,” Dennis states. 

I look at Marc and he shrugs his shoulders at me before he says, “he’s the one claiming that you’re not all that big.”

‘And you’re alright with that, me fucking him?”

“Yeah, then he’ll shut the fuck up and believe me.”

I look from Marc to Dennis and finally to Paul. 

“And what are you and Paul doing while I pound Dennis into the mattress?”

“He can fuck me if he wants to because he’s awfully hot looking.” Paul shyly says to Marc looking through his lashes at him.

“Fine, and just so that you know, you WILL be my bottom again, are we clear on this buster?”

“Now baby doll please don’t be like that,” Marc whines. “I did it once so we could be equals.”

“Equals, you call letting me fuck you once being my equal when you fuck me nearly every day and night? So here’s my deal stud, either you will bottom for me again or there’s no fucking between us until you do.”

“Holy fuck it is true, bottoming does make you feminine because you’re acting like a fucking bitch, Eric,” he says getting up and I fly from the bed, causing Paul and Dennis to run for cover into their room.

“Oh yeah, well you haven’t seen anything yet mister. You want to call me a bitch, then I’ll show you just how much of a bitch I can be,” I shout and storm into the bathroom. “I do hope that you and your hand are on good terms because that’s the only sex partner that you’re going to have,” I tell him and slam the door.

I lock the door behind me and sit down on the closed toilet seat. Never have I been so angry at Marc as I am right now. This is our first fight and it hurts. I’ve been called many names before and most of them much worse then bitch. I think that the reason it hurts so much is because I could see the anger and hurt in his eyes. Why was it hurtful to him I’m wondering and then it hits me. Not only did I minimize the discomfort of being fucked for the first time but I allowed Dennis and Paul to share in his humiliation. Suddenly I’m flooded with guilt and I abhor it. I unlock the door and go into our bedroom and find it empty. My heart begins to race as I run from the room in search of Marc. I run into the room that my brothers are sharing and that’s empty as well. I race down the hallway towards the stairs and stumble as I take the first step. I scream out as my body falls forward and I’m unable to stop my forward momentum. Over and over I go until I hit the floor at the bottom. Suddenly my world plunges into darkness.  

To be continued...

Posted: 10/22/2021