The Storm That Turned the Tide
By:
Sean E.
(© 2021 by the author)
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Chapter 30
Why We Care
Makalah McAllister
dropped off Benji, giving the youngster plenty of hugs and kisses, as well as
reminders to be on his best behavior. After speaking briefly with Petey's
mother, she backed out of the driveway and started for home when her cell phone
rang. "Hello Christine," she said cheerfully, recognizing the number
as belonging to one of her co-workers. She listened for a few seconds and then
frowned. "No, I haven't heard from James all afternoon. Why, is there
something going on?"
Within the seconds
that followed, she quickly slowed down and turned into a random driveway,
before backing out again in the opposite direction. Speeding off in the
direction she had come, the vehicle hurried forward under her guidance as she
continued to talk with her colleague. She did not turn in to Petey's driveway
however, choosing instead to accelerate past it and head for the highway not
far away. Without another word, she disconnected the line and took a deep
breath, trying to control the rapidly escalating panic that she began to feel.
For some reason,
the traffic through town was not as light as one would have expected, and it
took the McAllister matriarch almost ten minutes to reach the hospital. As she
rushed into the emergency parking lot and found her husband's truck, she slid
into place right beside it and parked, turning the engine off before taking a
deep breath. Exiting the vehicle and hobbling as quickly as she could move, she
made her way toward the emergency room doors. Once inside, she found her friend
waiting for her at the reception desk, along with both James and Noah, having a
quiet conversation. When the trio turned and saw her, they then straightened as
she approached. "Okay, what happened?" Makalah asked, more calmly
than she felt.
"I'm afraid
we don't know very much as of yet," James began. "Jesse seemed to
collapse at the store a little while ago. Noah found him unconscious and pale,
and when I couldn't bring him around, we brought him straight here."
"The doctors
have him back in the emergency room now," Noah added in a quiet voice.
Makalah studied
her husband's face briefly, detecting something she would later credit as being
a raw, emotional strain - something that they were both caught up in at the
moment, although in different ways. When she glanced down at Noah and saw his
bewilderment, along with a struggle to contain his own emotions, she paused.
She could tell he had shed a few tears, as the streaks left behind were subtly
present along his face. It was then the woman realized that both of them were
scared.
Makalah took a
deep breath and smiled at the teenager, before reaching out and placing a hand
upon his shoulder. "It's okay, kiddo. I'm sure Jesse will be
alright," she tried to reassure him, but then began removing her coat and
turning to Christine. "Take me back in there, please," she commanded,
to which her fellow nurse simply nodded. Makalah was a long-time member of the
staff for the emergency center, being one of the seasoned nurses the hospital
had on staff. All had come to know her well over the years, and none were going
to deny her access when the health of one of her family was at stake.
"Here, hang onto this, I'll be back as soon as I know something, I
promise," she stated, handing her coat to James. As he nodded, she began
moving up the corridor as quickly as she had arrived, before going through the
inner doors that lead deeper into the complex. Christine remained by her side
the entire time until they both disappeared.
James placed an
arm around Noah's shoulders, and both slowly walked back into the waiting area
before sitting once again. "Well, that's that, I guess. Makalah's in there
now though, she'll figure it out - or at least tell us what she finds
out," the man spoke softly, trying to reassure the teenager. "We just
have to patient for a little while, that's all."
Noah sat back and
sighed in the silence. Earlier, when he had entered the doorway and found James
as he did, he had started to panic - especially after seeing Jesse's father so
broken and uncertain. Within seconds, however, the man had looked up and
observed his audience, before the man collected himself and motioned the boy to
come closer. "It's okay," he had told him, clearly feeling out of
sorts. "I'm s-sorry, I just lost it for a minute, that's all."
"Is he...
Is... where...?" Noah whispered, but the man had waved at the double doors
leading into the emergency area.
"They took
him in straightaway, and told me I'd have to wait out here," the man had
explained, but then sighed. "So, right now, we simply have to wait it out.
I know, it's the hardest job of them all, but... we have to do it." His
voice was hollow and distant, and Noah could see the immense emotion behind his
eyes. The teenager, however, was conscious of how the waiting game was now
played, and he knew that there was little he could do or say to help the
situation. He sat had back then, the man's arm still draped around him
reassuringly, and nodded acceptance. Although for some people, such a gesture
would be considered awkward. Noah had found he didn't mind the man's arm there,
though. In fact, he had welcomed it, because in a way they both drew strength
from the other while sitting there. He had glanced up at one point, and saw
that James had closed his eyes, but he also observed the man closer and could
see the telltale lines of stress that had been introduced. He wished he could
do something, anything really - but for that, he was at a loss. After a moment,
he had turned back to stare at the double doors, as if willing them to open so
he could see his friend walking through them and into the room.
Still thinking
back, he recalled that it was some minutes before a woman finally appeared at
the reception desk. She had sat down and shuffled a few papers, all before
glancing up and noticing the two were sitting nearby. Rising from her chair,
she had moved around the front of the desk and approached. "Mr.
McAllister? James?" she asked politely, startling the man.
"Oh, yes!
Christine, isn't it?" he asked, bolting upright. "My son, Jesse...
he's here, and he's-"
"Yes, I know,
I just came from back there. No," she offered immediately, holding her
hand up to stave off the obvious questions about to rise. "I'm sorry, but
there is nothing new to tell you right now. They're still working with him, but
I can tell you he's breathing, and he has a heartbeat - so, from what I
observed, those are all good things." When she paused, she saw how
crestfallen the man had become. "Where's Makalah? I didn't see her back
there when I walked by," she whispered.
"I- uh,
well..." the man stammered, suddenly realizing he had, indeed, overlooked
something blatantly obvious. Fishing for his cell phone, he withdrew it from
his pocket, but was shaking so much it dropped to the floor. Christine had
picked it up for him and started to hand it over.
"Listen, why
don't you let me call her, okay? You know how she is... Besides, she'll be here
in a jiff," the woman offered kindly. James simply had nodded as he took
the phone and simply stared at it blankly for a moment. After the nurse walked
away, Noah lowered his voice.
"Um, are you
okay, sir?" the teen whispered.
"Yeah, I will
be," came the almost whispered reply. James had then looked over at him
and smiled grimly. "I know... I lost it there for a minute, didn't I?
But... yes, I am going to be alright." He then sighed. "What about
you? Are you alright?"
"I don't
know..." Noah replied honestly. "I'm... I'm worried, I guess."
"We all are,
but like I've always told you boys before, many times... we should not try to
jump to any conclusions too quickly. We need to know what happened, really,
before we decide to panic," James had reminded him soothingly, trying to
keep his voice calm. "Maybe that's where I failed earlier. Maybe I
panicked too quickly, when I knew better, right? Still, I'm not
infallible."
Noah recalled
looking up and wanting to say something, but he wisely kept his feelings in
check. James, however, seemed to sense that the teen was holding back and thus
sighed heavily before smiling wearily. "I know, Noah. That was not one of
my best moments really, and knowing you had to have thought the worst of it
when you saw me - well, I don't blame you for feeling frightened. I'm just as
human as anyone else is though, and honestly - I can still lose it sometimes.
Although, I should admit, I probably haven't done THAT in the better part of
twenty years or more."
Noah had smiled
then, feeling somewhat better. "Don't worry, sir. I... I didn't see
anything."
James chuckled.
"It doesn't matter, son. I wouldn't care if you did or not, or if you felt
you needed to tell someone, either. Unlike some people, it's not something that
troubles or bothers me. A lot of men, they try to hold things on the inside far
too much as it is. You know, those who feel they have to keep that
macho-manliness persona at the forefront, lest someone think they're weak. I've
never subscribed to that way of thinking though, and I think you and both my
sons know that. We all need a little help sometimes, you know, young or old,
male or female. Most of all, we all need to be human. To be otherwise is just
wrong."
Noah had
considered those words, and surprisingly felt that he understood. It was sort
of the same attitude Jesse had always seemed to have, since the first day they
had actually come together following the storm. Even his own father had alluded
to the same thing before, trying to teach him patience and humility, but to
never let anyone try and take away who he was. As he came out of his reverie,
he looked around the room again in the present and sighed. He didn't know how
long the two would have to wait, but there was no question that it was going to
be a while.
***
They sat for
several minutes again, until the big double-doors opened and another nurse
appeared. As she walked into the room, she approached the desk and spoke
quietly with Christine. Somehow the both James and Noah heard her call off the
name 'McAllister', and once overheard, James was instantly on his feet followed
by the teenager. As they crossed the short distance, the woman pulled back
slightly and only looked up and smiled, however, before disappearing once
again. "It's alright," Christine informed them when they arrived.
"That was Nancy. She said Makalah asked her to inform us that they just
drew some blood, and got it sent off to be analyzed."
"How long
will it take?" James asked quietly.
"They'll do
it in two phases, getting the crucial panels back in about an hour or so. The
full metabolic screening though, will probably take about two to three
hours," Christine explained. "That's really all there is to tell
right now, though. Try not to worry, though... We'll update you when something
develops, I promise."
With nothing else
to do, the two returned to their seats and sat glumly. As James had already
said, there was no choice now other than to wait.
It was the one
task, however, that neither wanted to do...
*******
Sheriff Hunt
stopped by his house to drop Pete off. Although it was not exactly a late hour
for the day, as it was mid-afternoon, the man felt that the teenager had had
enough excitement for the time being. The entire drive, short though it was,
lasted only minutes, and in that time-span Pete had sat quietly, staring out
the window. He was still recovering from what had transpired at the school,
dumbfounded at why he had never realized it before. Someone along the way had
suggested a similar line of thinking, he thought, as it seemed he had overheard
a conversation about the lockers before. But the words seemed murky, and he
could not recall the where or how. That it had all come full circle now, however,
was almost like a slap in the face.
Then there was the
point made by Harland Green, about what had prompted him to look into the deal
further. The kid he had built so much hatred and animosity for, for whom he had
schemed and worked with everything within his power to make life miserable -
was the one who had actually gone to bat for him behind the scenes. Why? For
all Pete could envision, the teen could not fathom first why Jesse would do it,
yet alone come up with such an obscure conclusion that helped to clear Pete
from what might have been a rugged outcome. This was the kid who had had the
shit beaten out of him, and who knew Pete was involved - at least, at the time.
Why wouldn't he have left things in place? Pete would have been in trouble for
certain, beyond just a simple school-yard brawl, and would have had what was
surely coming to him in the end. All Jesse had to do was keep quiet - but he
didn't. Why?
Then there was
Noah, too. He thought he understood what was happening early on with the teen,
when he first started to hang around their group. Pete thought of Noah as being
another loner, which in a lot of ways he was, looking for someone, anyone
really, that he could latch onto for the remaining years as he rode out high
school life. High school sucked, Pete thought, but it was better than nothing.
At least, when it came to needing a place to get away from everything else -
especially home. Pete didn't mind it, not really - other than he always thought
Noah tried too hard to fit in, laughing, championing his own jokes or such just
to keep up with the rest of him. He was younger, but seemed to have a good
enough bad-ass mentality that allowed their relationship to work. That is,
until the tornado hit the valley.
That had changed
everything.
Turning into the
driveway, Pete was stirred from his reverie when Jim spoke. "We did good
today, Pete. I have to run out to the parkway for a bit, though. As I heard, it
seems there's been an accident. Tell Martha not to expect me for a few hours at
least, and that I'll call her when I get free, alright?"
"Okay,
sure," Pete replied, opening the door when the vehicle came to a full
stop. He thanked the man for the ride, although he was uncertain why, but
climbed out and shut the door casually. He then stepped back and watched the
Sheriff maneuver the car around and drive away, until he was on the road and
disappearing into the distance. Turning, Pete then took a moment to observe the
house with a closer scrutiny. There was nothing extravagant or posh about the
place. The fact that it sat on a rather large sized lot wasn't all that strange
either, as many households in their small town enjoyed spacious lawns from one
residence to the next. The white-board siding was accented in places with stonework,
and deep red shutters sat on each side of the windows. The only thing that
could possibly stand out as being more opulent was the fact the driveway was
topped with asphalt, something you didn't find in many places in the rural
country. The teen realized it was a cute place, really, thinking about how it
differed from his own home further south of the town. The ground was frozen at
the moment, but he could just imagine the greenery of the lawn in the warmer
spring and summer months.
Before long, Pete
began to realize that the place was not all that different from what he had
always dreamed of having for his own, somewhere in the years ahead. Living
alone as much as he had, the teen didn't feel necessarily encouraged that his
future was very optimistic, but he had seen and even been in the houses of some
of his friends. Their family dynamics always varied, he knew - some along the
same lines of his own relationship with first his father, and then the gang.
But some, like this one now, were built around trusting, caring families. Those
visits though, clearly set Pete aside as the outcast, a "visitor" for
lack of a better term. Not that he blamed them. His bad-ass reputation, and his
arrogant attitudes at times, left much adjustment to be desired with the adults
he encountered. He had tried to be nice on most occasions, but it seemed most
of his friends' parents could see right through the façade.
Pete had always
wanted life to be different, though. When he stilled himself and absorbed the
moment in quietness, he always wished he had had a family - a real family -
like those he occasionally interacted with, or saw on television. A family that
wasn't so dysfunctional as his was, having to live by the seat of their pants
from one hour to the next. His own father was always looking over his shoulder,
always scheming from one adventure to the next, and really discarding anything
and anyone else who happened to be by his side - such as Pete and his mother.
How the man had survived for as long as he did, before going to prison, Pete
had no idea, really. He just wished it had turned out different, or that the
man had at least tried to care. Instead, Pete was left to his own devices, to
grow up the best way he could, by himself, to survive. He once overheard the
old man joking with one of his 'partners', for lack of a better term, the man
saying he left Pete alone so he would toughen up to the world, and learn to be
independent. If it were true, perhaps it wouldn't have hurt the teen as badly
as it did. Instead, the constant laughing and joking about the situation led
the teen to believe otherwise.
Pete always
figured his future wasn't going to be a bright one. If he was in the midst of
following the footsteps of his old man, then he knew he'd be stuck in a run-down
shack, hiding half his life alone, and avoiding the law. It had started with
his grandfather, who had passed the business down the line - especially once he
discovered his father's lack of any real morality when it came to deals that
would earn quick money, left and right. Therein had lain a legacy Pete had
secretly hated, having seen its ugly head all too often. It had cost him his
mother, his childhood and a whole lot more. It had caused him to be raped, in
the most vile and nastiest of ways, or so he thought. He had been abandoned,
relatively speaking, and had his soul purged, it seemed, of anything decent in
life. His own father had treated him so low, as a pimple on his ass, to speak
of. Oh, how he had envied some of his friends over the years, but of course,
most couldn't see what he lived through, or how good their lives were in
comparison to his own. He couldn't tell them either - lest he be abruptly
dragged away to lose what little grasp he had on reality.
Returning to the
present, however, Pete thought it was funny regarding the point Sheriff Hunt
had made once - telling him how young people just couldn't wait to grow up and
leave, thinking they could search for a better place and a bustling lifestyle
outside their little town. Pete had actually thought little of that idea,
preferring and appreciating what their little place in the world already
provided. He wanted some of the fun, sure... but for long term, all he really
wanted was to find a job and settle down some day. If that place was to be here
in Kentucky, then so be it - it didn't matter that much. Although he had
nothing to really tie him down to the area, he still liked it. It wasn't always
so, but the teenager actually came to appreciate the county he lived in. He
just had never seen himself as having much of a future in it.
Sighing, Pete
started for the door then, especially after observing that Martha was peering
out from the kitchen window, watching him with interest. It was then he
recalled the message Jim had asked him to pass on, so with a grunt, he chided
himself for having stood in the cold for so long. He walked over to the side
door and entered the house quietly.
"Hello, young
man! How was your day, today? Is everything alright?" Martha inquired,
after greeting the teenager with a warm smile.
"Oh, yeah,
everything's fine," Pete replied. "I'm sorry, I just... I had never
taken much time to look around outside before, at least not that way, and...
well..."
Martha laughed,
after pointing to the coat rack nearby. Pete listlessly hung his parka on one
of the spikes and then followed her into the kitchen. "By the way, Mr.
Hunt asked me to tell you he'd be a couple of hours still before he could come
in. Something about a wreck out on the parkway."
Martha nodded.
"I heard something about that over the police band, but I didn't pay much
attention to it. It sometimes happens, though, so no worries. Are you hungry? I
have to admit, I haven't cooked anything yet, because I thought we might all go
out for some pizza later, or at least something more non-traditional. A body
can only take so much in the way of comfort food before it becomes weary, I
think."
Pete stopped and
turned to her with a smile. "Ma'am, I don't think there is anything that
could make me tired of your cooking. Everything last week, and then this
weekend - well, it was fantastic!" The woman giggled, but blushed deeply
at the compliment all the same, before she slowly approached him.
"Well, thank
you, but... really, there are some who do a lot better than I do, believe
me," Martha confessed modestly. "Still, I was only looking to do
something a little different tonight, that's all. If you're not starving, what
say we give the old bear a couple of hours then and see how it ends up. There's
some snack-cakes in the pantry over there if you need something to hold you
over." The woman glanced at the clock. "If he doesn't call in a
little while, I'll ring him and we'll figure out then whether we want to wait
for him, or just go on out ourselves. How's that? You and I can take a spin
into town and go over to that buffet place. Does that sound like a plan?"
Pete smiled.
"Anything will be fine with me, honest. I appreciate it, ma'am."
Martha hesitated,
observing the boy further and noting something was somewhat off. "Are you
sure all is well? Nothing amiss, right?"
Pete shrugged.
"I'm okay, I guess. Just... I was kind of just processing some things,
that's all." When he saw her curiosity, he pulled out a chair at the
table, causing her to do the same in like manner. Both then sat, and Pete began
telling her about the morning with the lawyer, and then the afternoon's visit
at the school. Before long, he found himself giving out more details then,
about all the things that had been running through his head since, and how he
was still trying to believe it wasn't a dream.
It was at that
point the woman smiled and reached out, pinching Pete on the arm. At first, he
just watched her, but when she did it a second time with considerably more
force, he pulled back. "Ow!" the teen exclaimed, before laughing.
"What was that for?"
"To make sure
you realized you're not dreaming," Martha replied matter-of-factly. As the
teen laughed again, he rubbed the spot tenderly, still uncertain that he
understood. The woman, on the other hand, sat forward in her chair and leaned
in closer him. "There are a few things in life we can't always explain,
you know. I mean, sometimes things do happen for a reason, when we least expect
it. Not that it's always for the best, mind you, because as we grow older, life
does get a little more difficult in the end. We gain new responsibilities, and
we gain new loves, fellowships, roles and a whole host of other things. But
sometimes honey, sometimes there is a goodness that comes from it. I think in a
way, you're finding that out now, maybe for the first time in a long, long
while."
Pete frowned,
turning his gaze to look out the window. "You guys keep saying that and
all, but... you don't understand. I've never had anything 'good' happen to me
like this, you know? I mean, just over a week ago, I figured my life was about
done for and over with, remember? I- I even considered just giving up and
checking out. I mean, what was the use in living anymore, the way things had
been going for me. But... as much of a badass as I was, especially giving so
much shit to that kid at school, and... and other things... In the end, I was
nothing more than a coward. I couldn't even, I mean, go through with calling it
quits. I just, I chickened out." He suddenly blushed. "Sorry, I
didn't mean to cuss."
Martha observed
him carefully before smiling. "Well, being a 'badass' as you call it,
really has nothing to do with it, I think. Everybody has their rough patches
they go through, along with their weakest moments, Pete. And it's not being a
coward to chicken out of calling it quits, if you mean what I think you're
saying. As far as what I think, you were just having some of those moments and
all, I'm sure. It's something all of us have though, some more severely than
others. Believe it or not though, it just helps us realize how much more human
we really are, too. I've already told Jim, I can't even begin to imagine how
you survived out there, all on your own, for over a month like you did.
Someone, I think, had to be watching over you - at least a guardian angel, if
nothing else."
Pete slowly shook
his head. "I don't believe in guardian angels, ma'am. I'm sorry, I don't
mean to be disrespectful at all, I just..."
Martha placed her
hand upon his arm. "You do not have to explain it to me, dear. I'm
perfectly aware that a good portion of the world thinks differently than what
some of the rest of us do, and even our own portion of the world doesn't always
agree on the same basics. But listen to me, and listen really carefully,
alright? I want you to consider something..." When Pete turned and gave
her his attention, she smiled at him again. "With regard to Guardian
Angels, they come in all shapes and sizes, not just the heavenly, silver-winged
images you might think of. They're in life all around you, such as in a pet, a
friend, maybe even a child. They're in people that are both seen and unseen,
nearby or not so close. They can exist to simply point you on your way
somewhere, to guide you in your thoughts and ideas, or perhaps they just keep
the worst from happening to you, whether you realize it or not. They're
strangers, in a sense, but they're as real as you and I are, sitting right here
and having this discussion about them. That is what I believe, see? They're
there to give you reassurance when you need it, or a shoulder to cry on, and to
let you know you're not alone." The woman sat back and waved her arms
wide. "Believe in that much dear, at least, whether you're a religious
person or not. Guardian angels - they are always around you, in the best of
times, and even in the worst of times. Sometimes they have limits with what
they can do, but they are always, always keeping you company in one way or
another."
Pete stared at her
for a long while before he sighed. The teen struggled to keep his emotions from
getting the better of him as he looked into her eyes. What he saw in the lady,
and the last few days with her family, was enough to make him want to change in
what he believed. "Then, you and Mr. Hunt must be mine, because... because
that's all you've been doing since I've got here. You've been helping me,
making me feel - I don't know, better - not alone. You know?" Then,
without preamble, he reached out and hugged her in his arms, all the while
trying to hold back the tears that he was losing control over.
It was true, Pete
thought. From the very first day he had turned himself in and stepped into the
Sheriff's office, he had experienced nothing but kindness from the man, and
then his wife and their family. Even in just the few short days he had spent
with them both, one-on-one and away from the stress of everyday living, they
had set about teaching him things he had never before considered, along with
the fact that sometimes you have to turn a corner in order to find the better
side of life. When he surrendered that day a week before, he had given up in
desperation, losing all hope of anything ever being better for him. These two
and a few others, however, had taught him that hope was still alive, and that
all he needed to do now was to be humble enough to see it, embrace it - and
accept. Pete Haskell III was indeed grateful, and it showed. When Martha
returned his embrace, she held him as she would hold any child, as complete and
unbidden as she could. Pete finally began to remember what it was like, when
his mother used to embrace and hold him that way years before.
More than that, it
caused him to remember the peace it had given him on the inside, because now,
in that moment, he could feel it once again.
*******
When the
double-doors opened once again leading into the emergency ward, Makalah hobbled
through with a steady gait. James looked up and noted his wife seemed to be
doing better, almost back to her normal self in most respects. She no longer
required the use of a cane or crutch, although she still had a limp in her
stride. Perhaps, he thought, that was because of the bandages that still
encased her foot.
As she saw him,
the woman pointed off toward the corner of the room, specifically at the door
that opened into a small consultation office. He understood immediately, as he
had seen and visited within it before. Generally reserved for serious cases at
least, it allowed doctors and families to come together with a semblance of
privacy, and discuss information about a loved one who had been brought in. It
could signal a serious matter or issue, but not always - a fact that somewhat
mollified the man as he rose from his seat and began walking the short distance
to join her. Once reaching the aisle, however, he stopped and turned, glancing
around him and then back to the seats. Noah had sat up straighter, and with a
keen interest when he, too, had spotted Makalah on the return. He had hung back
though, with a sense of uncertainty as he watched them both move forward. He
was not family, not in the blood sense that most people defined it with, so he
hesitated with respect to that right for Jesse's parents. At least, until James
suddenly waved at him to come on. With a feeling of elation and relief, he
bolted from the chair and quickly moved to join the two. As Noah reached the
man's side, James put an inviting arm around the teenager's shoulders with a
weak smile, before all three stepped through the open doorway and into the
smaller office.
Makalah smiled at
the teen and took one of two chairs waiting on their side of the makeshift
desk. James was going to steer the teenager into the other, but Noah quickly
shook his head. "I'd rather stand, honest," he whispered. The older
man grunted and then took a seat as well, while Noah took up a position behind
them and leaned against the wall. It wasn't but a moment later when a door
opened behind the desk, and a man Noah immediately recognized as being Jesse's
doctor from his prior visits, entered the room and shook hands with the elder
McAllister right away, before nodding warmly to the teenager.
Sitting down, the
doctor paused long enough to open a folder and set it in front of him on the
desktop. "Okay, there's good news and so-so news, I think. The first,
which your wife has told you I'm sure, is that Jesse is awake, and is growing
stronger again with each passing hour. His cognitive functions seem to be
working normally as well, although he's a little fuzzy about what actually
happened. That is not surprising, as it is not abnormal for people to
experience that, especially in cases like this. The immediate blood panel came
back showing that everything was mostly normal, too, but there was a high-level
concentration of white blood cells in the system - more than is normal, I
believe, but certainly not alarming given the magnitude of his recent incident
here. We did put him on oxygen for about a half-hour, and gave him an
intravenous solution combined with a general antibiotic. So far, all of his
stats have improved considerably, so we took him off of the oxygen just a
little while ago, and he is breathing just fine."
The doctor looked
up with an expression of perplexity at that point. "Now, as to what
happened today, I think there are a combination of things that contributed to
his blackout. Note, as I said, he doesn't recall the fall or anything about it
immediately afterwards, nor can he really recall anything leading up to it -
other than he said he suddenly felt exhausted again this afternoon. We talked
for a bit, however, about the last week or so and how he had been doing, and
other than the exhaustion, I didn't initially see anything. Clearly, it's been
two weeks since his incident at the high school, and when we released him to go
home, everything seemed to be climbing up in the right direction, and to a full
recovery."
"But... you
agree, that something isn't right," James muttered. Makalah smiled and
reached out, grabbing hold of his hand and squeezing it gently. She remained
silent, however, as the doctor nodded in response.
"Oh yes,
something is off... and I must admit, I may be partially to blame here. You
see, while he was here the first round, we worked his stats and gave him
medications to help with the swelling, as well as monitored for any side
effects of the concussion. As it was, he never gave me reason to believe we
needed to do another blood culture, because he was improving, right? But that's
the trick here, I think. When I pulled the initial result from two weeks ago,
and compared it to the full workup we just did a little while ago, there are
some vast differences. For one thing, in the last two weeks, his sodium count
has fallen to extremely low levels, as well as his iron - which, for all
purposes now, is practically non-existent."
James frowned
before turning to his wife. "Is that... bad?"
Makalah picked up
the conversation at that point. "Well, without iron, his body will have a
problem generating hemoglobin, which in turns means it can't produce the red
blood cells needed to pass oxygen throughout the rest of his body."
"That is
correct, and if the cellular count is reduced, the body will try to offset it
using other natural-based mechanisms," the doctor added.
"Which
means... you'll see more white counts than red," James theorized, finally
understanding.
"That's
right, you have the general idea, yes. It is not enough to create fatigue by
itself, but one of the symptoms of having low iron levels is exhaustion, and
when you combine that with a low sodium presence internally, along with a few
other elements, then... that, I believe, can create a wide range of episodes,
such as what he experienced in your store this afternoon." The doctor sat
forward, placing his elbows upon the desk and becoming thoughtful. "Tell
me, how has his food intake been since he went home from here?"
"Well, it
started normal," Makalah answered, thinking back. "I mean, it wasn't
as much as it usually was, but... it wasn't horribly different, either."
"The last
couple of days haven't been the best," Noah offered quietly, when both
parents seemed to fall into a period of silence. "I mean, he didn't eat a
lot of his breakfast or lunch yesterday, and though we went out for Mexican
last night, he only ate some chips and salsa, mostly. Maybe half of his
burrito, but he didn't touch the other stuff, the beans or rice, at all."
Makalah glanced up
at the teen and smiled before turning back. "Noah's probably right. He
would know better, I think. They are like two peas in a pod, and he isn't usually
wrong. I did notice that after our Christmas dinner, Jesse had tapered off
quite a bit. I just figured he had a little upset stomach, or needed time to
digest everything. It was a different kind of meal than your everyday
sort."
"Thinking
back," James interjected. "I agree. I remember him putting quite a
few things on his plate, but he only ate about half of it that day, at least
initially. I think I felt like Makalah did here, believing that he was still
just adjusting and all, doc."
"It's quite
possible that he was, I have no doubt," the doctor replied.
"Regardless, I've ordered some sodium supplements to be added to his IV,
and honestly, I think he needs to stay here overnight for observation
again." He held up his hand, however, seeing James shoulders sag
significantly. "I don't think this will be anything like it was before,
Mr. McAllister. Most likely he'll go home sometime in the morning, unless
something drastic was to happen. If we keep him overnight though, we can get
another blood workup done and do a quick comparison, see? I want to put him on
some iron supplements, too. We'll do it kind of heavy up front, then taper off
and monitor it over the next few weeks or months, if need be. Seriously, it
could be he just needs to adjust his diet, or if necessary, we can add the
supplements to a regular daily routine, and all will be well again."
"Do you...
will it be that simple?" James asked, an eyebrow stretched high as if in
surprise.
The doctor
chuckled. "I know, for as alarming of an event as this was, it seems like
it would be an insignificant treatment, right? But, yes... I'm not trying to
oversimplify it, believe me, but yes... If we go by what I have in front of me,
and knowing our history as we do for Jesse... then yes, this could all have a
modest solution."
"We can do
that," James admitted, eventually sighing with relief. When he glanced at
his wife, he knew then she had already been expecting this. "Did you get
Benji to Petey's before all of this?"
"Yes, he'll
be fine over there until tomorrow afternoon," she replied back, before
turning to the doctor. "Did you, by chance, check out his other condition,
too?"
The man smiled and
nodded. "I checked everything out, Makalah, and yes - the swelling in his
testicles has subsided substantially. The color is returning as well, which is
a very good thing for someone with those circumstances. The other bruises are
coming along nicely, too - some of which you can hardly even tell were there to
begin with. Just as I suspected it would be, really. I take it he still has
some discomfort getting up and down, right?" All three of them, James,
Makalah and Noah alike, nodded simultaneously, causing the man to sit back and
chuckle. "I'm afraid that will probably still hang around a couple of
weeks more before it subsides completely. To coin a phrase, however - 'it too,
shall pass'. Just don't force him to sit or do anything hastily. His internals
- the muscles, tendons and the like - need to heal at their own rate. The more
he uses them, the more they'll return to their old state, but pushing too
quickly could put them at a disadvantage. I'll prescribe a very mild muscle
relaxant before he leaves, but only let him take them if you feel it's
necessary, alright? As long as he can sleep reasonably well, then the rest will
work itself out."
When it was
obvious the session was drawing to a close, James stood and shook the doctor's
hand once again. "I don't know how to thank you, again. I admit - bringing
him in here, it was kind of a scary thing for me. Not just for me, either - I
think Noah was about as concerned as I was," he added.
The doctor stood
as well, while Makalah climbed to her feet again, albeit a little more slowly
than her husband. "I don't doubt it, really. He'll be fine though, but I
think we can expect over the next few weeks that we'll have to keep an eye on
him. If all this amounts to is a lack of nutrients and supplements, we can
correct that oversight almost immediately. At the worst-case scenario, we'll
give him some blood here to start working on flushing his body with a more
normal iron-base composition. Either way, there is nothing in these test
results, or in the scans we took, to indicate anything worse." The man
lowered his voice as he turned and took Makalah's outstretched hand to shake
it. "Just watch him, once he gets home. Let him dictate what he feels like
doing or not. All is not that bad, I assure you. And be sure to watch after
yourself, too. I'm happy to see you up and moving about this well, as we've
been missing you terribly from the staff, but we do want you to get better soon
before you get back. Alright?"
Makalah nodded.
"I'll come back at any time if it's a necessity, you know that. Just have
someone give me a call. If nothing else, I can sit at the desk and keep things
coordinated, freeing up someone else. That might be something to keep in the
back of your head too, especially around New Year's Eve and the day after here.
I can help one or two to have the holiday off, you know."
"I... well,
we'll look at the schedule," the man nodded in agreement. "As long as
you're sure."
"I am,
honestly. Otherwise, I was only hoping I could keep my leave through the
weekend, at least until the boys make it back into school next week. I have to
admit, as much of a pain in my rear this has been, the upside has been getting
to be home and spend some time with the boys," Makalah explained with a
tired smile.
The doctor smile
and nodded. "It's been relatively quiet this week, and as long as that
holds, I don't see why we can't work around it. Plus, the more time you get,
the quicker that heel will get better. Dr. Reddy is supposed to be back up here
on Tuesday, I think. You should arrange to have him check it out first, before
you're totally cleared."
"Okay, I'll
do that. If all is well, then I can start back that day, or whenever the
schedule opens up for my turn," the woman replied, then began following
her husband to the door. They both turned and thanked the man one last time,
before exiting back into the emergency room. All three made way their over to
the closest seats to sit down again, before Makalah turned to Noah. "Thank
you for that, helping and all."
Before Noah could
contemplate about what the woman was referring to, James added, "I know
you were hesitant about joining us, but... there was no reason not to. You're a
part of us as much as anyone else is."
"I..
uh..." Noah started to reply, but then accepted their thanks. "I'm
just glad you let me come in," he added softly.
"I
agree," Makalah commented, before placing a hand on his knee. "So, we
need to figure out what we're going to do then, don't we?" she asked, more
pointedly in her husband's direction. "Do you want me to stay
tonight?"
James crossed his
arms and became thoughtful. "If all they're going to do is monitor him for
the duration, I don't think it's really necessary, is it? Plus, no matter what
he said in there about Jesse, you really do need to get up off of that foot
again for a while. Why don't you stay for a little while, so Noah and I can go
back up to the store and finish some things off." He glanced at his watch.
"If we leave soon, we can get there in time to do the closing, lock up and
all, too. Then we'll..." He paused and chuckled. "I don't know, get
something for us all to eat again, I guess. We'll come back and visit for a
little while, and then I'll take you home."
A merry expression
crossed Makalah's face. "And what about our adopted son, here? Or should
we refer to him as something else?" She turned her attention to the
teenager. "I suppose you probably want to stay with him here tonight
again, don't you?" Noah tried to keep his face expressionless, but the
thin smile that surfaced betrayed him, enough so that Makalah ended up laughing
altogether. "Why should I ask such silly questions, I wonder."
Noah blushed as
James returned his arm around the teenager's shoulders. "You'll have to
get your parents' permission, of course."
Noah suddenly
looked up at the man, realizing he had forgotten about them. Glancing at his
watch, he sat up straight. "They might even be home by now!"
James laughed.
"Well, come on, you can call them on the way back to the store," he
remarked, climbing to his feet again. "As for you, honey, we'll give you a
call when we're on the way back over here," he directed to his wife as the
other two stood as well.
*******
Jim Hunt pulled
into the driveway just as Martha and Pete were leaving the back door, readying
themselves to go out for pizza. After parking, the man grunted as exited his
vehicle and met them mid-way between the house and garage. "Didn't take
long enough to miss out, I guess," he quipped, which drew a smack on his
arm from Martha.
"Don't you
start that, now! You're the one who likes their baked pasta down there,
anyway!" his wife quipped. "Do you want to go in and change first, or
just hop on in the car?"
Jim glanced at
himself and then the house. "I think I'd rather go out on this occasion
without the uniform. At least, while I can. It makes me feel a little more
human somehow, instead of just an old geezer with a target on his back, you
know?" He grinned, then nodded. "I tell you what, you two go ahead,
back the car out and warm the old bird up. I won't need but a minute, I think.
I'll just go shed the shirt and change coats, then be right back out."
"Well, make
sure you find a shirt to replace the one you're shedding," Martha teased
him, smiling at her own joke as the man grunted again and headed off inside.
Approximately five minutes later, the trio were turning around in the driveway
and heading toward the road. "How bad was the accident?" Martha asked
after they were well underway.
"Not too
horrible, thank goodness. Lady from Russel County was going down the wrong ramp
onto the parkway. She looked to be snookered pretty bad, according to
Phil."
"Oh, my
heavens!" Martha exclaimed. "How 'wrong' was the ramp, given the time
of day?"
Jim grunted again
from the passenger seat as he sat back and relaxed for a change. "She was
trying to head south on an off-ramp, so she got clipped by one of those big
utility vehicles, the kind with the buckets and all. Ending up flipping her car
totally over. The funny part is, she climbed out afterwards and started to
curse out the poor man driving the truck! Made a heck of a scene too, from what
I'm told! I can't wait to see what the newspapers write-up about this
one!" He glanced at her directly. "Did Mr. Pete back here tell you
about his visit today up at the high school?"
"He sure
did," Martha replied, exchanging a smile with her husband as they entered
town. "Talk about good luck, I would say he got an extra helping of it,
wouldn't you?"
"Oh yes,
without a doubt," Jim replied, before glancing into the rear where Pete
was seated, listening in. "You over the shock of it, yet?"
Sheepishly, the
teen nodded. "I guess so," he replied quietly. Jim Hunt observed the
teen briefly, but then nodded before turning back.
As Martha drove
them along, the man glanced out and observed the scenery that was passing by
before eventually commenting on it. "You know, I sometimes forget all that
one misses when you're driving all the time," the man remarked. "I
mean, when you're driving, you can look about and all, but you really have to
have at least half-your brain focused on the road, if not more. It's so easy to
skip or miss things. Like, take this house up on the right here, and all the
Christmas lights they have hanging outside. I've always noted they were there,
but it's only now I see what I've been missing, I think. They've got quite the
display, wouldn't you say Martha?"
Martha scoffed.
"You old grump! Of course, yes - they are! Harold and the kids go all out
almost every year, and every year you say the same thing about it!" She
laughed before relenting. Glancing at Pete in the rear-view mirror, she
explained. "He's right, though. He's so used to doing all the driving, it
is very easy to skip over things. I know that from experience. Harold Moore
back there, they go out of their way almost every year for the kids and grandkids.
I've heard some of them call it the 'Moore-th Pole', and for good reason."
The woman then sighed sadly. "I can't imagine them keeping it up much
longer though, as Harold and Sylvia are getting up in years themselves."
Pete nodded his understanding, as the trio continued a short distance further
before turning off into the parking lot of a familiar, but popular pizza diner.
When they climbed
out and headed inside, they stopped at the door to see that the place was much
more crowded than they had expected. "I guess we're not the only ones with
Italian palates being satisfied tonight, hmm?" Jim Hunt remarked.
"Where are we
going to sit?" Martha asked, scanning the crowd. "Or should we just
get something to go?"
Jim was about to
reply when he suddenly spotted two familiar people just sitting down at a
table. Smiling, he took a few steps forward. "James McAllister!" he
declared. "How's it going? World treating you good tonight?" Before
the man could respond, however, Jim recognized the teenager as not being whom
he had first suspected. "Hello to you too! Noah, isn't it? Where's your
partner in crime at tonight? Loading up on pizza somewhere?" The man had
quickly scanned the line but did not see the other boy.
By that time, both
Martha and Pete had joined the Sheriff and greeted the other two kindly.
"Jim! Give them a chance to speak, for heaven's sake!" she admonished
her husband, but all four of the others smiled.
"Um, Jesse
isn't with us right now, I'm afraid. It's just Noah and myself at the moment.
Would..." James hesitated, looking around and assessing how full the
dining room was. "Would you like to join us? We probably won't be here all
that long anyway."
After a quick,
reassuring glance with his wife, Jim and his companions pulled out chairs and
joined the other two as invited. Once seated, Jim regarded the man curiously
and saw what looked to be anything but an expression of ease. "Okay,
what's wrong? Has something happened?"
James smiled
grimly, but then relaxed. "You could say that, yeah." He then
launched into a short recap of the afternoon's adventure. As Martha and Jim
listened, their own expressions changed to ones of growing concern. It was
Pete, however, who seemed to be the most surprised of all, as he leaned forward
listening and hanging onto every word.
"But...
Jesse, he's going to be okay... right?" the bigger boy asked when there
was an apparent pause near the end. James glanced at him and nodded.
"The doctor
said he'll be fine, but the hospital is keeping him overnight for observation.
If all goes well, then they'll release him to come home in the morning."
Martha sat back,
looking relieved. "Thank the Good Lord!" she muttered and then shook
her head. "That young man sure has had a bit of a rough go of it lately,
hasn't he?"
Although she had
made the remark casually, addressing her feeling of thankfulness regarding the
outcome, Pete could not help think about something even deeper. The teenager's
thoughts initially turned toward how it had all started that night in the gym.
He frowned, however, when he realized that truthfully it had started long
before then. Feelings of guilt overcame him then as he sat there in reflection,
and as time progressed his shoulders drooped even further. He paid little
attention to the rest of the conversation, and once they had ordered their
drinks, he rose to his feet, excusing himself to go to the bathroom.
It wasn't until
Noah returned to the table with a plate filled with several slices of pizza,
that he noticed the older teen had yet to return. A quick scan of the line of
people at the buffet table also verified Pete's absence, so setting his plate
down, Noah excused himself. Casually making his way toward the back of the
restaurant, he found the door to the men's bathroom and entered. Although there
was one person washing their hands, no one stood at the urinals, so the teen
nonchalantly checked the three stalls and noted that one of them was occupied.
Taking his time, he stepped closer after the other individual finished and
left, leaving the two alone for the time being. "Hey, Pete, is that you in
there?" he asked quietly, not wishing to intrude in case it was not whom
he expected.
A huge sigh came
from the other side of the door. "Yeah, it's me ..." the teenager
replied. After a brief delay, the door unlatched and swung inward, before the
other boy appeared. "Sorry, I was..." When he didn't finish, however,
Noah leaned back against the wall and observed him closely.
"You were
thinking, I guess," Noah filled in for him. Pete searched the younger
boy's expression closely before moving on to the sink to wash his hands. When
he still refused to say anything further, Noah took the initiative. "So,
what gives? Anything you want to talk about?"
The bigger boy
paused as he dried his hands, before shrugging his shoulders, "It's
nothing. I'm just glad Jesse is going to be alright." He had turned and
was readying to leave, but Noah stepped up and blocked his way.
"He is, I
promise," Noah announced. "I admit it - it scared us a little, but it
all turned out okay." His eyes narrowed as a thought struck him. "You
do realize that, right? I mean, it didn't have anything to do with you. He had
some other things going on, and what happened today, well... it just happened."
Pete stared silently for almost a full minute
before his shoulders sagged once again. "I understand, but Noah... you
can't honestly believe that. I mean, all of this started with me after
Halloween, remember? If I hadn't been such a dick-head about everything with
you two, then-"
"This had
nothing to do with you being an asshole," Noah growled. "This had to
do with Jesse developing some kind of low iron condition or something,
alright?" His voice then softened. "Seriously... I understand, you
know? You might like to hide it sometimes, but I can see it otherwise. You
care, and I know it. For that matter yeah, you were a royal-class jerk wad
there for a while - that's for sure. But... don't over-think something that
isn't meant to be thought of that way. Jesse told me something not too long ago
you know, about how people should only be guilty for the things they're really
guilty of, and not for the things they aren't. You didn't have anything to do
with this. You should think about that too, okay?"
Pete sharply
turned and threw his hands up in the air. "Jesse said this, or Jess said
that... Shit, man, why does everything suddenly have to be about what Jesse
says and does anymore? Will you listen to yourself? I mean... fuck!" he
exclaimed. His voice was low and hollow, but filled with an obvious level of
frustration. "Okay, I get it, he's your friend, alright? Probably a better
friend than I'll ever deserve to have, and that's fine - I deserve it. But...
shit..." When he saw the other teenager's frustration beginning to build,
Pete couldn't deal with it just then, so he shook his head and quickly left the
restroom.
Noah stood in
place, stunned for the moment before he finally followed. Upon returning to the
table, he saw the other boy was finally in the buffet line and ignoring him, so
Noah took his seat with an uneasy feeling. The three adults were deep into
conversation, and only Martha directly acknowledged his return. The teen sat
quietly, taking a few bites of his food and trying to think about what had
brought all that on, before Pete returned and sat down next to him.
Both boys remained
silent for some time, nibbling away at their food, but neither was very
invested at the moment. Noah had no idea what or how to respond to the
onslaught he had just endured, and Pete, feeling hopelessly confused himself,
only sulked and picked at his food. At least, until he finally let go of a deep
breath and purposefully nudged the younger teen with his leg. Glancing
sideways, he gave Noah a half-smile, which the boy tried to return, but inside
it left him feeling even more confused than before.
When the two
appeared to finally finish, Pete nudged the teen again a second time, before
nodding toward the far corner where the now-familiar pinball machine sat, unoccupied.
"Do you happen to have any quarters on you?" he asked quietly.
Surprised, Noah
nodded. "A few, yeah," he replied, before getting up and indicating
to James where they were headed. Both Mr. McAllister and Jim acknowledged him,
and then the boys headed over. Upon arriving at the machine, Noah set up a
match for two players, before letting Pete take the first turn.
"I'm
sorry," Pete began, as he plunged the first ball into action. "What I
said was out of line, and, well... I'm sorry." It was an apology spoken
softly, but Noah could sense the bigger boy was being sincere.
Noah contemplated
that for a minute before he answered. "It's okay. You should know though,
he was talking about you, Pete."
"Huh?"
Pete asked, frowning.
"When Jesse
was talking about how people shouldn't be guilty for something they didn't do,
well, he was talking about you. I think it might have been when we were talking
to Mr. Green about the drugs and stuff at school and all," Noah explained
quietly.
Pete dropped his
head then, ignoring the ball as it slipped past the paddles and into the
outgoing trap. When the machine switched up for the next player, he still stood
there momentarily before looking up. Stepping aside, Noah took his place while
the bigger teen contemplated the game, but clearly his thoughts were elsewhere.
"I found out about it, you know. Earlier today," he finally
confessed. "I just... it's hard, okay? I mean, all this shit and
everything. I'm the one responsible for this crap, you know? All of it! And...
but still... he's the one who seems to keep pulling me out of... out of
trouble, see? And... and it's just - it's hard for somebody like me to process
and understand it all, okay?" The boy was near tears, and he turned away
to hide them from Noah and any other onlookers who might catch him unaware.
Noah stood silent
for a moment, playing his turn out until he lost the ball, before standing back
to let Pete take over again. When the boy detected it was his turn, he shook
his head. "You play it," he whispered, but Noah shook his head as
well.
"No, come on
man, it's your turn," he responded, moving to the other side of the
machine. Pete composed himself and turned back, but could not help notice how
much closer Noah had suddenly moved in to stand beside him. In fact, he was
practically shielding the older boy from the rest of the room.
"I'll be
alright, just..." he started, but Noah simply tapped the glass, indicating
that Pete should launch the ball. When Pete put it into play, Noah took a deep
breath and spoke low enough that only the other teen could hear him.
"You're
right, Pete. I do talk about Jesse a lot, and even his little brother
sometimes. I talk about him though, because Jesse is the one who changed me a
lot, for the better, see? He was... well, in the beginning, I thought he was
kind of an oddball sometimes, but as I got to know him, it didn't turn out that
way at all. He has this thing see, this part on the inside that cares about
everyone else, but really little to nothing about himself. It took me a while
to see that, and then even longer to understand it, you know? I mean, face it -
who do we know in the whole fucking school that's, like, so selfless and all,
and... and... who keeps picking himself up, after everything that gets thrown
at him or his family? The storm, getting called queer, losing practically
everything... even his brother, almost. I mean it, all he does it seems, is
just shrug it off and keep on going?"
Pete thought about
that for a moment before whispering, "I don't know. I mean, I don't know
of anyone like that, not really."
"Exactly," Noah replied. "And then you take me. You were
right about what you said that day at the park. All I ever wanted was to just
find somewhere to... to fit in, you know? To just make it through high school,
really. Me, the kid who practically got raped by a girl at a skating party, and
got so scared and fucked over that I practically crapped my pants like a little
kid." He saw Pete's look of utter surprise at that statement, and then
realized what he had just confessed. Noah grunted. "Yeah, me! A kid that
was so confused for a long time and... and alone. Me, who was the worst
jack-ass of them all in the beginning. I mean, you don't know how bad off I
was, Pete. And remember when that tornado took the McAllisters' home and
everything else that they had, and then my parents pulled them in to stay with
us for a week, I was one royal, pain-in-the-ass jerk, okay? I was the one who
hated all of them for living with us, and I hated him the most at the time,
because, well... all because... all because... Hell, I don't even know
anymore."
Pete lost his
second ball then, so once again the two switched places. "It probably had
a lot to do with me and the guys," he whispered
Noah nodded before
he continued. "Maybe, yeah. But... I'll tell you something else, man. As
much of an asshole as I was to them and to 'him'... Jesse was the one who
didn't give up on me. I don't know why he did it, but it had nothing to do with
being gay or anything, see? He... he's the one who kind of taught me how to
stop feeling sorry for myself, not just with words but... in other ways, too.
He's the one who made me see things around me a lot differently than I did
before, and in that I saw how wrong I was. I was wrong about him, my parents,
school... really, about a lot of things I took for granted. All the time I'm
being a dick-head to him, and my parents and whoever else, and there was
someone who..." Noah sighed. "Don't you see, Pete? He's the one who
never gave up on me. That's what friends are all about, you know? They stick
with you, through the best and worst of it all, and they don't leave you. Get
it? Jesse is one of those who never left me. Even when you and the others did.
How... how could I not, you know, find something in that and all? That's my
best friend, my real friend, and... and..."
A silence fell
between them momentarily as Noah worked the pinball back into the upper portion
of the table again before he spoke again. "You want to know something
else? Despite everything you or the guys tried to rag on me about, I didn't
care if Jesse was gay or not. I mean, that's really why you started bitching on
me, right? I didn't care though, because being friends with him had nothing to
do about being gay, or sex or any of that other crap! What it did have to do
with was having someone who listened to me without laughing, or throwing
everything back in my face. He helped me reason through everything I was going
through, and then some. Besides, the whole time he stayed with us, all I saw
was a normal person, you know! Don't you see? He was teaching me how to be a
human being again, and that hit pretty deep on the inside." When he lost
the ball, he looked up straight into the older teen's eyes. "So, yeah, I
guess I do talk about Jesse a lot sometimes, and I'm sorry if it seems like, I
don't know, I put him up on some kind of a pedestal or whatever. I don't mean
to really, but Pete... these last couple of months? Jesse's the one who has
been in my life, helping me put it all back together again! That's why he and I
are so close. That's why... I mean, it's why I care so much. Understand?"
Pete listened, but
as he put the ball into play, he had little concentration to give it, and it quickly
exited, thus finishing their game. His thoughts returned to what Martha had
told him just a few hours before, about how there are angels among us, that
help us get through the rough times. No matter where they come from, sometimes
in people, our friends or others, they're there to help hold us up. To Pete, it
sounded like that was what Jesse was doing, not just for Noah... but for a lot
of people. When the older teen glanced up at Noah again though, he was
surprised to find a smile waiting for him, which helped him calm himself
considerably. "I'm glad for you, really. I- I couldn't see it then, I
know. I can look back on it now though, and... I can tell something wasn't
right with you. I mean, I could tell you were hurting. I just... I didn't know
how, or why."
Noah nodded.
"It's the same with you, man. I saw you and your friends as these big
bullies and everything, and I was okay with that for a while. It was just
having a little playful fun, mostly, and that... that didn't bother me too bad.
Heck, it kept anyone from messing with me, too, right? But... after a while, it
just started to feel so wrong, and... and after the McAllisters moved in with
us, I started getting even more confused. I didn't understand you at all, at
least not until the day you turned yourself in." Noah suddenly folded his
arms. "No, I take that back. I didn't start to see there was another side
of you until Jesse and I were in the hospital. That's when he started talking
about what happened, and that maybe you weren't as big of an asshole as I
thought you were. It was a hard thing to accept, you know? But... That's when I
started putting things together that didn't have a bullseye painted on your ass
so much anymore, with pants to the knees and then you mooning everybody in plain
sight." The teen giggled. "Or at least, that's what I always thought
you wanted to do to everyone."
Pete grunted, but
then smiled. "Never considered that one," he replied, finally
giggling at the thought.
Noah grinned as
well, before pulling more coins from his pocket. Seeing that the adults were
still deep into their conversation, he inserted the required fare and set up
another matched play. Both boys played the round mostly in silence, but this
time concentrating much more seriously than before in the open competition. As
they neared finishing, Pete finally sighed out loud. "I know I was a
jack-ass, Noah, but I'm ready to pay for it all now. You can tell Jesse, I'll
even go hang myself from the ropes in the locker room, and let everyone strip
me naked and beat the shit out of me, if he wants me to. Tell him... I mean it,
just tell him I'll do anything, okay? I'll even go to jail if that's what I
need to do. Honest, I don't care. I just... I really need to find a way to make
things right with him. More than anything, okay? I don't care what it is...
just... I need to make things right with him, and you too, for that matter.
Okay?"
Noah grunted,
shaking his head. "That is between you and him, but somehow I don't think
he has any desire to see your french-fried fruit hanging on display, just so he
or anyone else can beat your balls to the size of grapefruits."
For some reason,
Pete found that so amusing he practically choked on his own laughter, enough so
that it made Noah grin as he took over his own turn once again. When the older
teen finally regained control, he suddenly hissed. "Shit, man! Where the
hell did THAT one come from? French-fried fruit?" he hissed. "That's
hilarious!"
Noah only
shrugged, but grinned his agreement. "I don't know. Saw it online
somewhere, I think. Probably has something to do with the banana and nuts us
guys have hanging," was all he would admit. Only when the game had ended
for them both, did he speak again. "Just so you know, he hasn't said one
thing to me about it, nor have I heard anything from his parents. If he wants
to make something right with you, you'll know about it soon enough, but until
then... you have to give him some time, alright? He has to get better first,
more than anything. And that means not just physically, but... on the inside,
too. I have to have my friend back, Pete. He's like, I don't know... he's like
the brother I've never had, okay? Understand?"
Pete nodded.
"Yeah, believe it or not, I do."
"And as for
me," Noah went on, pausing only slightly. "It may take some time for
me to get used to the new you somewhat, but otherwise, we're good. Okay? I mean
that, too."
Pete observed the
teen briefly before smiling. "Th-thanks, man."
Before they walked
away from the game, however, he raised his fist in an unthreatening manner,
mid-air between them. Noah did the same, and they bumped, but Pete held the
connection just a second longer than he needed to. Neither said anything else
to the other, but then there was no need to. Another one of those unspoken
sentiments was exchanged between them: Pete's being one filled with gratitude,
and Noah's being one of forgiveness.
*******
"Man, you are
a sight for sore eyes!"
Jesse made the
remark once they were alone and Noah was pulled up to the side of the bed,
sitting on a stool. His parents had stayed for quite a while that evening,
before surrendering the night to his best friend - but only with warnings to
call if anything happened. Reassuring them, and watching them take their leave,
made Noah feel extremely grateful.
The hospital had
transferred Jesse once again to a semi-private room, a perk of sorts since he
was Makalah's son, and since there were plenty of empty rooms to spare. One of
the nurses that came by earlier had admitted that the hospital was seeing a low
turnout at the present, with the only real problems focused on several patients
with flu-like symptoms. Those 'victims', as she teasingly referred to them,
were being kept in a whole other wing, with the hopes of minimizing the spread
to others, if any at all.
Before his parents
left, however, near the ending of the current shift, Jesse was surprised by a
visit from one of the other nurses. When she stepped into the room, she greeted
him politely and then handed him a card. "Remember the little girl you
gave your balloon to, on the day you checked out? Well, her mother heard about
your mother working here and all, and she came by right after Christmas to
leave this with us up at the station. We promised we'd give it to Makalah, or
directly to you, as soon as we could arrange it. Then, when I heard you were
here for tonight, I thought I'd bring it around." She smiled at him, and
after he thanked her, she quietly disappeared while he opened the envelope.
Inside there was a custom, hand-made card that was obviously the work of a
youth. She thanked him though, and told him that balloon made her feel better
for the rest of that day and even the next. She also promised him a hug, if she
ever met up with him again.
"Aw, isn't
that sweet!" Makalah had commented, especially after hearing about the
details with which no one had filled her in. Jesse nodded, and then set the
card up on the table next to him. It was now, in their solitude, he looked upon
the card again and smiled.
As Noah sat on his
stool with everyone else now gone, Jesse's remark made him smile. "You
are, too."
Jesse shook his
head. "I doubt as much, though. I mean, when I woke up and saw where I was
again..." The teen sighed. "I'm sorry. I guess I really scared you
and Dad, didn't I?"
Noah shrugged.
"Um, maybe a little bit, yeah, but... I'm just glad I found you and all,
and we got you here before it could turn out any worse."
Jesse sank back in
his bed. "I guess, but... yeah. I didn't mean to, really... I've just, you
know, been so out of it the last few days. I didn't think of it building up to
something like this, though."
Noah looked around
the room and reached for Jesse's hand, grasping it tightly. "But it did,
and it did because you're not talking to me, and telling me everything going on
with you. You want to know what I was thinking when the doctor told us you were
going to be alright? For just a moment there, I was thinking how much I wanted
to beat your ass... for not making me realize how 'off' you were feeling. And
then," he paused, shifting himself more comfortably. "And then I
wanted to beat my own ass for not realizing it any sooner. All the signs were
there, you know?"
"But... I'm
the one who kept telling you not to worry, that I was fine... and I really
thought that, honest," Jesse whispered back. "I just... I don't know,
I'm still figuring it all out, I guess."
"Well, you're
not figuring it out by yourself anymore," Noah replied with a whisper.
"Whatever you tell your parents, that's up to you. What you're telling me,
though... I won't forgive you again if you hold out on me, okay?" He
leaned in close. "Don't you get it? We're brothers now, and that means
we're responsible for each other."
Jesse smiled.
"Yeah, I get it. I promise, I'll be, uh, more forthcoming from now on if I
need to be."
"Damned
straight you will!" Noah replied with a grin, but then sighed. "You
know, we've got to do something about keeping you at home. We can't 'play' like
we want to when you're in here."
Jesse blushed.
"I know. I'm trying though, I promise."
"Did they
skin you again?" Noah asked, his voice turning consciously low.
Jesse blushed even
deeper still, but nodded. "Almost. I've still got my boxers on, but there was
one time the Doc, well... he went exploring, I guess."
Noah grunted.
"I guess old guys don't get to see enough of us teenagers like they
want." Seeing Jesse begin to crack up, he made a face. "You know what
I mean! They probably just get older, grey-haired and wrinkled pricks to deal
with mostly!"
Jesse laughed hard
then, tears coming to his eyes unabashedly. "Shit, Noah!" he hissed,
but had to settle down when one of his monitors began going off. Within seconds
he found the lead and pushed it back in. "You might be right,
though."
"Of course,
I'm right!" Noah replied, before leaning in close. "Still... I think
your banana is just the right size and smooth enough to be devoured, to me
anyway. So, no worries in that department." Noah nuzzled Jesse's ear then,
which made the teenager lean in nuzzle them closer together.
"You know,
sometimes I think I'm the luckiest kid alive, having you beside me," Jesse
whispered.
"And
Benji?" Noah teased, backing away just slightly with an amused look.
Jesse began to
object. "Don't start with him, come on man, it's different..."
"I know it
is, Jess. I'm here with you though, okay?" Noah brushed their noses
together for a few seconds, before pulling back and situating himself even
closer then. "Now, I've got some news for you, and believe me, you're
going to freak out! I think..."
*******
"Pete, why
don't you join us in the living room here for a bit here," Jim Hunt
announced, once they had returned home and entered the house again. "I
think Martha and I want to talk something over with you."
Pete glanced at
the two with a sudden feeling of apprehension, but he nodded his agreement and
followed them. The room was already lit with the twinkling, multi-colored
lights on the Christmas tree, as well as an brightly illuminated garland that
stretched across the fireplace mantle. Martha turned on one of the table lamps,
however, before she indicated a spot at the end of the couch. As the teen sat
down, she joined him as Jim crossed and took his usual place in the recliner.
They sat in silence for a moment before the Sheriff cleared his throat.
"So, I guess we have a question for you, and I'd really appreciate it if
you'd take a few seconds to think about it before you answer, alright?"
When the teenager nodded, the man's gaze fell upon him directly. "Tell us,
how did it feel, being here with the family and all these last few days?"
Pete suddenly
arched his eyebrows in surprise. In a sense, he thought this topic might come
up at some point before he had to leave and be placed into foster care, but he
was a little surprised it had not come up sooner. "I- I thought, honest,
it was one of the best times I've ever had. Especially while spending time with
your grandson, Justin. He was really cool to hang out with, I think. He made
me... I don't know, think about some things, I guess." He paused, before
lowering his voice. "I'm hoping that we can stay friends after everything
else gets settled, too. I'd hate to, like, lose him and all."
"Well,
friendships are kind of hard to break in this family," Martha replied.
"Especially when they're sincere."
Jim cleared his
throat. "I agree, and I think Justin could use having you around some,
too. So, Martha and I got to talking last night, and we wondered how you might
feel making this a more, ah, permanent situation."
Pete sensed there
was something here he was missing. "How so? I mean, I can always call,
maybe visit sometimes, but..."
"What he
means is, how would you feel just staying here with us for a while?"
Martha blurted out. Seeing the surprise register on Pete's face, she suddenly
chuckled. "Oh, come on now, you can't be that surprised about it."
Jim laughed as
well. "I don't know, dear... this one seems to be a little slow on the
uptake at times," he teased before holding a hand up. "Just listen to
me for a minute, okay? I know... it's a surprise, but it isn't something we
haven't been considering. Since you showed up here and started being a part of
the family, well... it's kind of hard for the two of us to shake the feeling
we'd be letting you go into a heartless system, one where it's anybody's game
on where you'll turn up at, see? For several reasons, actually. First of all,
you're 15 and, if I recall correctly, it won't be too long before you turn 16.
That already makes getting into the fostering process kind of late in the game,
and that in turn most likely means you'll end up in one of those boys' homes,
somewhere up in the state. Some of them are decent, but I have to tell you some
of them aren't the best, if you know what I mean. Granted, you'd only be there
for around two years, but that's two years of your life that will still be
subject to a number of unknowns, overall. Second of all, from my perspective, I
don't really want you getting that far away from here, especially when there
are things we're going to have to deal with regarding your old homestead, your
father and the others."
Pete looked on,
dumbfounded, which caused Jim to pause. That in turn allowed Martha to pick up
the conversation. "It's not all about the job, though. The thing is, you
have little to nothing to go back to, and you really need to go forward. I
openly admit, I never considered this at first. We've raised two daughters in
this house, and all the experience I've had is doing just that - raising two
girls. I've never raised a boy, you see, and didn't even consider I would. I
would actually be against it, I think - except for one thing. From the first
moment you and I sat down on this couch that first day, I could see something I
didn't expect. Would you like to know what I saw?"
Pete stared at the
woman and, when he realized she was waiting for an answer, he nodded. "I
saw," Martha continued, "a remarkable young man who just needed to
get his head on straight."
"Which, as
far as I've seen, you've been doing a pretty good job with," Jim picked up
again. "Now, you have to understand a few things. Most people, most
teenagers at best, don't give a shit about situations like this by the time
they reach your age. By then, it's to hell with the system, see, and they just
can't wait to get out and away from it all. As soon as that 18th birthday hits,
they're gone like a fart in the wind." The man saw his wife grimace, for
which he gave her an apologetic look before sitting forward in his chair.
"You'll probably do the same thing, at some point - but what would mean
the most to Martha and myself, is if when you leave, it's not with that kind of
attitude. You see, son, we care, and I think that's been abundantly clear up to
now, hasn't it? We think a lot of you, and because we know where you've come
from and all, we think you'd be a lot happier if you would stick around here.
The people here know you, and from the looks of things, you're getting to
acquire a few friends who would be very happy if you stayed around. I know that
as far as the two of us, we'd be happier if you'd stuck around, too. Justin
would probably be thrilled, and that's putting it mildly."
Martha chuckled
beside him. "Oh, that wouldn't even begin to describe it!"
Pete glanced at
her, but then turned his gaze back to Jim. "I... well, that's all good,
but... you said it yourself, sir. There... there's still some things that have
to be sorted out, things I have to answer to, and... and..."
"One of the
reasons we went to see Harland today was to get one of the biggest items off
your plate," Jim replied kindly. "Believe me, when Ronald gets done
sifting through those videos and pulling together all the facts, I'm pretty
sure he'll go before the judge and probably get it all dismissed." The man
paused, however, as he regarded the boy again. "Then the only other thing
that remains, I think, that could outright snag you up - is the assault up
there at the school. Not the best of circumstances, I'll admit, but there's
something you should know about that."
"He's
right," Martha interjected again. "While you boys were playing that
game tonight, Jim asked Mr. McAllister if he had had any thoughts regarding
what they intended to do about it. Meaning, of course, was he going to push for
charges against you, or anything else. He surprised us by saying that,
according to him, neither he nor his wife had thought anything about it yet. It
was his opinion that it should be whatever his son wanted to do, since he was
the one on the receiving end of all that happened up there. Jesse, I believe
was his name, right?"
Jim nodded.
"You see, that's a big thing, Pete. If Jesse's parents get involved and
press charges, you'll have no choice but to go before a judge, with a lawyer
and all. Although I admit that you may have some mitigating circumstances, in
the eyes of the law you will be guilty of being an accessory to an assault.
Even though it was on school grounds, which tend to handle things separately,
this is one of those cases they cannot interfere in. But, if they don't press
charges, then it all changes and does become a school matter, you see. Right
now, Harland Green is also willing to let Jesse make that decision. It's as if
you have to get through two gates at the same time, one of which could force me
to process you through the system, or another that could still decide to expel
you for the rest of the school year. Understand? Does that make sense?"
Pete felt as if
his head were spinning. "I- I think so, yeah. But... if he doesn't, what,
press charges or something? Him or his parents?" he whispered.
"Like I said,
if he does, then you'll have to deal with him and possibly the school system,
and whatever aftermath comes from it will be your atonement. If he doesn't,
then... remarkably so, then you'll have nothing more to worry about," Jim
stated simply.
"But... what
about social services, and... and..." Pete objected, still trying to
process the information.
"Social
services will leave you alone, if we apply to foster you for the next two
years," Martha replied. "Seriously, that is not the problem. We know
of others who have done it in such circumstances, so there is nothing
extraordinary in getting it done."
"Many
families have had to submit in the past, because they've found it difficult to
afford the feed and care of grandchildren, or similar. So, like Martha said,
the two of us getting to take over your care shouldn't be a problem -
especially, again, if I get Ronald involved with it." Jim paused before
lowering his voice again. "The thing at this point though, is you Pete.
How do you feel about it? You understand, we're up in years, and we don't have
a lot of stamina to deal with a wild, girl-crazy youngster and all. So far
though, I don't think we'll have any issue with that. What you might need to
consider though, son, is how you're going to have to adjust."
"Adjust?" Pete said quietly, almost a whisper.
"You're already a teenager, Pete, but
you'll be one suddenly living out here with the Sheriff of Adair County! We
don't know what that's going to mean to your peers at school, or out here in
the real world, or if that even matters to you. The only thing we DO know is
that it'll be an abrupt change of lifestyle from what you've been used to.
Because of that, yes -there will be adjustments, no doubt," Martha
explained. "Just like Jim and I are going to have to adjust to you being
around here, there will be some trial and error for you, too. We can't promise
it will always be smooth, but then neither can you. What we can say though, is
that for the next two or more years, it will be interesting for all of us
around here. We'll help you, though. I mean, seriously, that's what all of this
is about in the end. We'll see to it you have a safe place to stay, where
you'll be appreciated and, yes, even loved. We're both fully aware we'll never
replace your parents, oh no! Neither of us will ever assume that, nor do we
ever want to, for that matter! But... what we will do is be your friends, and
your mentors, and we'll help you get yourself back on track. Don't think that
means we'll smother you, either - because like most things in life, you have to
be able to discover the adventure on your own. But... we promise we'll be that
someone you can come home to, from school or work, and you'll know we're here
to look out for your best interest when the need arises. We'll help you learn
how to drive, and get a job and more when the time comes, see? We'll help you
have some fun too, and teach you when you need to be serious about life. In all
these things, we're willing to give it our best, just so you can give it your
best shot."
"The money
will be yours, too," Jim spoke up. "We'll take what the state gives
us and put it aside, other than we might dip into it a little bit so you can
build up a better wardrobe for yourself. Certainly, more than what you can fit
into a backpack! Otherwise though, we'll drop the bulk of it into a savings
account or something for you for a little while. Then, when you do get a
license and can drive, and you're ready to do so, we'll see about finding you a
vehicle that you can buy on your own. It'll be yours, because like I said,
you'll buy it with your own money. You have my word: we won't touch a dime of
it otherwise, unless something just comes up that causes us to really have
to."
Pete sat back.
"I wouldn't care if you took it all," he whispered, but then shook
his head before laughing. "You... I can't, I mean... To think you would be
willing to take a has been, someone like me, and... and..."
Martha sat up and
gave the teen an indignant look. "'Has-been?' I won't have any more of
that, I tell you!" she said rather sternly, then broke into her own smile.
"Yes, we would be willing to take you in. It's only for a few short years
anyway. That is, for me and Jim. It's not like some long, deep commitment - not
monetarily, that is. But... it will be another kind of commitment, and one I
personally hope you'll recognize and learn to appreciate, on the inside. You're
not a has-been; you never were before, and you're certainly not one now."
Pete nodded,
recognizing her point already. "I would be... I would... I would be a part
of your family then, right? For a little while?"
Jim smiled.
"No, not for a little while. That is something that might surprise you, I
think. You see, you will become a part of our family, though it will be for as
long as we are both living, I suspect, and then beyond."
Pete suddenly
blinked several times, comprehending his meaning before breaking out in tears,
unable to hold back any longer. "You'd do that... for me?"
Martha decidedly
scooted over a little closer and then took the teen within her arms, just as he
began to lose it completely. "Yes, we'd do that... just for you," she
said reassuringly. She glanced at her husband, thinking about the last few days
and what she had observed. "Like we said, we know it won't be anything
perfect, but... we know you'll be safe, and you know you'll be well cared for.
That would be worth it to anyone who cared, I think - and yes, Pete, we do
care." She continued to hold him for some minutes until the teenager
seemed to recompose himself. She eventually pulled back and, holding him at
arms' length, the woman observed him with a gleam in her eyes. "So, does
this mean 'yes'?"
Pete sat in
silence for only a few seconds before smiling. "There is nothing I think
could make me happier, really." He reached out and embraced her again
briefly, before retreating and standing up. Moving over to Jim, he observed the
man before extending his hand. "Thank you, for everything. I really mean
it."
Jim grunted,
however, before standing and embracing the teen as well. "See? Some of us old
farts will give out hugs too, every once in a while," he whispered.
"Just remember: sometimes, there are a few good things in life that turn
out even better. I happen to believe this is one of them, don't you?"
Pete nodded into
the man's shoulder before stepping back. "What... I mean, what happens if
a-any of this d-doesn't go like y-you think it will?" Pete asked, still
feeling very emotional.
"Well, then
we'll deal with it when we cross that bridge, won't we? You won't have to face
it alone, I assure you," Jim simply stated. "But... as I've told you
before, I'm a pretty good judge of character, I think, and I've been in this
job long enough to know how the ball bounces most of the time." He smiled.
"I'm pretty sure it's all going to work out just fine. Remember what I've
said about my family? Remember what I told you on Christmas Eve?"
Pete nodded.
"Oh, yeah," he whispered.
Martha then stood
and approached them both. "Okay... we do have one favor to ask: be
selective who you tell this to, alright? It's going to take Jim a few days to
get all the paperwork ironed out with the right people, so let's not get too
far in letting the cat out of the bag until we have to." When Pete nodded
his understanding, she then smiled and pulled out her cell phone before handing
it over to him. "However, I do think you should give Justin a call
tonight, and fill him in on the details. Then maybe tomorrow or Thursday, you
and I can both take a ride up there and visit for the day. Somehow, I bet you'd
both like that anyway."
Pete smiled,
thinking about something that Noah had told him. What it did have to do with
though, was him teaching me how to be a human being again. Pete thought about
that a lot, and he realized he was really missing out on something important -
until now. "I know I would," he replied to the woman.
He understood it
now... in his heart.
To be continued...
Posted: 05/21/2021